broken heart.

Sunday, September 09, 2007

this is me..

yesterday ( Saturday ) has been a significant day for me. I shall leave my morning activity for another blog post for another day

on Friday night, we had a reunion for performers / committee around my area.

in the past, whenever i watched Survivor's reunion, i wonder how they feel. like all the drama, struggle and what nots are history now. now they can make peace and be friends and laugh at the old times.

that night i felt it. it was undescriable but i'll try ok.

there were some people there celebrating with us that night. there was questions asked for us, performers such as

" how did you feel about the whole performance?"

" did you willingly joined?"

yeah, such things . then we had an eating session. our performance video was shown but watching it didn't make me go WOWWWWWW .. it just made me go ooo .. that's it -.-''

we had to perform our aerobic steps .. and although i was like

" ahh .. paiseh le .. "

i was really proud inside =) .. proud that i was in this big group which made it =)

then the next day, we went to see exhibition at Jalan Imbi there and this is what i learn about nuclear war ..

PLEASE SAY NO TO NUCLEAR ..

here ya go --> ICAN

anyways when we arrived at the location, we met up with our group members ~~for the final time.~~

one disappointing news was when i just reached there, Joseph smsed to inform us that he cannot be there for our Appreciation Night. *sad*

Never mind, the night must go on.

We watched the performance video again and i have to say, this time with the people and the different atmosphere there, watching it made me wanna cry. it was so beautiful, so solid, so nice that it made me feel so surreal that i actually joined this project and i was 1 out of those 1500 there. =) =) =)

i managed to control my tears though and this time the video just took my breath away.

i have to admit, i miss practice and i miss the 'torture' we had to go thru. it's like a suffering and sacrifice but in the end, it is all worth it . It's like willing to sacrifice because in the end, u know u will be so damn happy and it will be so worth it.

i recall my first day .

Sam actually keep asking me to join this project. I joined only because she said these.

" You try for one day, if you don't like, you can quit"

I learnt everything on that day reluctantly because at the back of my mind, I wanted to quit at the end of the day. I really do.

But by that night, Joseph had given me a role and suddenly there was a sense of commitment and responsibility for E3.

That night when i returned home, my mom asked will i go for practice tomorrow

I opened my mouth and said " yes"

As cliche and classic as it sounds, the rest is history =)

i have no regrets.

To my E3 members, you guys are always in my mind, eventhough some of us never really spoke to each other before, i still treasure you. Believe me =)

Haha, i think you guys are sick of my emo-ness so i better stop but yeah.. I miss you guys and you guys are always the best.

-E3 member -

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