hey, it's been a while since i blog.. i know ..

anyways , feeling much better but sad to say.. i lost a bit of me when i recover



now i .. i have no more craving for food ..



ya know, once in a while you crave for something different .. something extra..

but not me anymore .... i don't crave anymore .... =(



i don't even enjoy food anymore.. i truly became a robot who only eat to live..



what the heck is wrong with me ?



XOXO ..



moving on, music news update.. i been listening to something different nowadays ...






yep, him *points*



Show / Alan Luo Zhi Xiang..



i love love his song .. two songs i'm currently into nowadays is Tou Shi 'See through' and Guo wang you xi ' King's game'..



for those who never heard of him, you should try .. =D



anyways , this is gonna be the busiest time , end of this week until next week...

all the final assignments and soon exams... wargghhh!!!

oh btw, my sis got a new phone .. her first phone .. waaa .. when i was 12, i don't even know what the hell is a cell phone >:( ..

i would have been very upset but dad promise to upgrade my phone .. hehe ..

speaking of dad, grandma is here for the few days holz.. hmmm..

*lets mind wander off*

ah nothing de le .. *brushes off thoughts*

isn't it weird that i DID NOT think much of him these few days? maybe it was a crush after all..

btw, to answer some people's kepo question.. i'm NOT attached ok? and stop guessing who 'him' is .. aiyo.. i'm single and unattached.. not attached to him or any hims ..

oh, here i wanna announced to my dear wira wirawati .. i dunno how old is this news .. but i heard.. i heard la .. from sources that Sarjan Ishak, one of our NS camp discipline staff had passed away from a motor accident.

and i heard from my gege that a physical teacher from camp, Cikgu Merah ? has also passed away .. dunno why =(

R.I.P

it's sad to hear these news ( although i don't remember them much) ..

the other day there was a show on tv showing a little bit about NS camp.. when they showed the trainees hugging at the end of their 3 months training, i had tears rolling down my face ...

has it been 2 years? and 2 years still can make me cry? ='( ..

-jlyn-

Labels: ASSignment grumble, family, memories

;9:53 PM

aww since i got sick .. no one .. i repeat no one has done this for me =D ..

** aww so sweet ... i love you !! **

** see, love me too!! **

** Awww... i wish **

** ok, i need one badly**

hehe, thx .. so cute le u *pinch pinch cheek*

Sickly yours,

JLyn

Labels: chit chat, family, pix

;8:24 PM

Since i got tagged by Abby ..

[Seven Things I'm Experiencing Now]

1. Nose blocked
2. Painful throat.
3. Hungry tummy
4. Sleepiness
5. Homesickness , a bit
6. Enjoying SHE music
7. Cough

[Seven Things I'm Thinking About Now]
1. Damn nose!
2. Him
3. What can I eat later
4. I wanna sleep la
5. My tablet’s on the floor .. not right!
6. Creative comm report
7. The questions Mr Rozi gave today in class

[Seven Things I'm Worrying About]
1. My future
2. My health
3. My dad and his work
4. Assignments and exams
5. Dog the cat
6. My flu body can tolerate cold shower or not
7. Not being able to go back next weekend

[Seven Things I'm Happy About]
1. My parents love me
2. Having an education
3. Having a bunch of items bao bei
4. I was a wirawati
5. My hair
6. I’m Hokkien
7. Him

[Seven People I Treasure]
won’t list here but if you treasure me, then I treasure you lor

[Seven Things I Always Touch or Come In Contact With]
1. Fonee – phone
2. Colby – comp
3. Cheeze – camera
4. Jie Chun – mp4
5. Sally - tablet
6. My hair
7. Rings

[Seven Things I Want to Improve]
1. My studies
2. Be more independent
3. I wanna drive!
4. My Fonee
5. Hate less people
6. Be more patient
7. I’m too punctual

[Seven Things I'm Strong In]
1. Listening and chatting
2. Writing essays.. can la
3. Expressing myself with words
4. Hokkien language
5. Cold showers lol
6. Blow balloons
7. Follow my heart

[Seven Things I'm Weak In]
1. Maths
2. Him
3. Time management
4. Drawing
5. Standing up for myself
6. Patience
7. Science

[Seven Things I Adore Eating]
1. Mommy’s egg porridge
2. Potato
3. Egg
4. Onion Rings
5. Toast (especially with egg)
6. McFlurry
7. Nuggets

[Seven Things I Adore Drinking]
1. Water
2. Orange juice
3. Milo
4. Ice lemon tea
5. Milk
6. Mix fruit juice
7. Ribena

[Seven Things I Detest]
1. Know it alls
2. Loneliness
3. Carrot
4. The 2 or 3 individuals
5. Giving the cold shoulder
6. How fat I am
7. Public display of affection

[Seven Things I Cannot Live Without]
1. Family
2. Internet
3. Water
4. Cash
5. Oxygen
6. Music
7. Friends

[Seven Things I Fear to Show]
1. CGPA
2. My tears
3. My other blog
4. My hatred towards you!
5. My adoration for him
6. My PJ room
7. My fats

[Seven Things I'll Never Want to Talk About]
1. Politic
2. Haunting ghostly stuff
3. My online exes
4. Making fun / joke about my family
5. Bitches
6. A big web of lies
7. Excuses

[Seven Things I Will Want to Do]
1. Finish assignments
2. Study for exams
3. Shed weight
4. Adore him till I don’t anymore
5. Have my perfect bday
6. Vacation
7. Eat medicine

[Seven Things I Will Never Play Around When/With]
1. Assignments
2. Social issues
3. My feelings
4. Health
5. Family
6. Him
7. Love

[Seven Things I Wonder About]
1. Will he ever know ?
2. Will I be able to make a wonderful flash application?
3. How is everyone at home?
4. What do I eat that will fill me up yet don’t hurt my throat
5. How would I write the report?
6. Where’s Dog ?
7. When am I gonna recover?

[Seven Questions I Hope My Friends Would Respond To]
1. Am I too hyperactive?
2. Do you hate my mood swings especially during PMS ?
3. Do you hate me for always ranting about him?
4. Do you hate Jay and think I got no taste listening to Jay?
5. Will you still love me the same if I changed?
6. Do I need to open up more?
7. Am I too impatient?

[Seven Things (or People) I Would Love to See]
1. High CGPA
2. The weight shed
3. Him with a smile
4. Parents proud of me
5. With a new phone
6. Be friends with Jay or/ and Wu Chun
7. All my family members gathered happily

[Seven People I Wanna Tag]
1. Karyn
2. Ezul
3. Marese
4. Juju
5. Steph
6. Joanne
7. Alicia

Labels: daily rant, tag

;6:54 PM

originally, i din wanna sleep at all tonight .. i mean *look at time* it's 3 am ++ and i have 8 am class.. so what's the point of sleeping right ??

eyes not cooperating in this mission.. *closing halfway*

so basically i'm up cause of actionscripting and flash. but flash is being a bitch now and keeps hanging .. haish .

i have a news to share. the cat (named dog) who always come around my house.. well she's preggie.. XD .. i wonder which tom cat knocked her up .. i feel so scared for her.. wonder is she okay because she's preggie..

i know i'm nutz cause i always talk to her.. i call her "girl" or "baby" .. and then i like to pamper her.. so basically you know, now she's preggie, i'm extra concern..

"girl girl lai.. come mamam"

"baby lai.. come drink water.. thirsty or not"

@.@ .. man, i think i'm losing it..

anyhow .. anyways ..

i been a bit nutz about Pon and Zi this few days ... such simple yet cute meaningful cartoon ..

this is one of my fave...




=) .. so sweet and give me a warm gooey feeling inside ..

my winamp gone nutz , so i decided to switch to windows media player

buden i dun like the layout .. X( .. very rigid looking .. so i switched to the new itunes

much much much much better... see i can see jay when i listen to him =D

although it's blue, ok la .. screw pink

yesterday was watching one of Jay's old video .. " Jian dan ai" - Simple love.. and I realize , i really really like his music a lot lor...

"but he mumble wor"



and that's a problem because...?



then i realize i want jay's music to be in every part of my life.. forever



i want my love themes to be jay jay jay ..



=D



gap teeth, slinted (sepet) eyes, mumbles, bad hairdo, facial hair.. i take it all.. =D cause i adore him for his talents.. his creations ..



*hugs imaginary Jay*



haish .. *think of him*



no no no no.. no more.. *tears welled up in mind*



haish ... *look around* i think i wanna oi oi de *yawns*



class le at 8. kanasai le .. ahem .. sleep le ..

nite. morn.

-JLyn-

Labels: ASSignment grumble, daily rant, jay chou

;3:10 AM

Let's try and see how honest I can be .. remember I'm baring 100 % here.. no hiding..

1. Honestly, what color is your underwear?
*peep* light pink .. lol ..

2. Honestly, whats on your mind right now?
*crack head* flash flash flash.. actionscript.. oh damn.. him him him.. X(

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
doing this for my bloggie and chatting with eric

4. Honestly, what did you do today?
lunch at padi, met ol friend, got hyper for reasons, watched cls drama [ which was really good btw] *thumbs up*

5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
i have my vain moments but i never think i'm worth to be call attractive

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
i had bad thoughts .. =( .. bad thoughts ... not dirty thoughts

7. Honestly, do you watch disney channel?
yeh of course.. i'm a kid that never grows up

8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
hmm that never cross my mind.. i don't think so ..

9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?
knowing my family wants me, him in any way.

10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
you know, i actually tried to.. but i never like it .. XD

11. Honestly, what is your mood rightnow?
sleepy, stress, lazee..... heavy crush / love sick??? O.o

12.Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?
no, but i did throw up.. just because ..

13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
of course but it's impossible.

14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?
honestly, i think so. it's a deep secret but not dark

16. Honestly, do you hate someone right now?
hate is too strong, let's call it dislike.. 3 particular individuals ..

17. Honestly, who/what do you want to hug right now?
i wanna be hugged.. i dowan to hug .. by who? i dunno.. him?

18. Honestly, are you loyal?
to my family as they are my top priority

19. Honestly, are you in denial?
i think so.. cause i'm confused

20. Honestly, wouldn't you rather behaving sex right now?
nah sorry, not in the mood right now

21. Honestly, who is your best friend?
*laughs bitterly* honestly, who? i stopped believing in best friends..

22. Honestly, have you ever consumed alcohol?
a couple of times. high twice. drunk once.

23. Honestly, do you like someone?
*refers to question 19* *deep breath* yesh, i do.. there i admit it

24. Honestly, does anyone like you?
i hope so lol.. what kinda like?

25. Honestly, is it going anywhere with them?
er.. "them" ..?? u mean him? no, i don't intend to let him know ..

26. Honestly, did you answer all these questions honestly?
as honest as i could ..

btw, yesterday was a day to remember ..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUSDI ..

the big 22 oh ! =D

im a.. err.. going to bed now..

nitez peeps.

- jlyn -

Labels: bday wish, daily rant, tag

;12:36 AM

I stole this from Ezul's blog.. nyanyanya

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1. Jazlyn
2. Khai
3. Kikz

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. My hair.. i like it the way it is..
2. The fact that i'm fair
3. My face..

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. The thighs
2. The butt
3. Fatty arms

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1. Chinese
2. Hokkien
3. Teochew

THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T STAND
1. People who do things slowly
2. People who lie to my face
3. People who make fun of my sensitive stuff

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1.Loneliness
2. Heights
3. Friends

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SHOWS
1. Desperate housewives
2.Grey's anatomy
3.CSI Miami

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE JAPANESE ANIMES
1. Hanakimi - cause of Chun
2. Shin Chan.. so funny!
3. -

THREE OF FAVOURITE YOUR NON-ENGLISH SHOWS
1. Chinese
2. Korean
3. Bollywood

THREE OF YOUR CURRENT FAVOURITE SONGS
1.Who am I - Will Young
2. Hard to breathe - Evan
3. Zhuan shu tian shi [ my personal angel] - Tank

THREE MOVIES YOU CAN WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN
1. A walk to remember
2. Mean girls
3. Initial D

THREE MOVIES YOU WOULD LIKE TO WATCH
1. Me Bean's holiday
2. The marine
3. -

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. Music
2. Sleep
3. Hope

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. Black blouse
2. Shorts
3. Leo necklace

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. Trust
2. Romance
3. Humor

THREE PHYISCAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE GENDER THAT APPEALS TO YOU
1. Hair !!
2. Eyes
3. Smile

THREE BAD HABITS
1. Singing cause my voice suxs
2. Burping loudly
3. PMS mood swing

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES
1. Blogging
2. Reading stories .. not facts
3. Writing

THREE THINGS YOU WANNA DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. Do flash actionscript
2. Have him feeling the same way
3. Shower

THREE CAREERS YOUR CONSIDERING OR CURRENTLY PURSUING
1. Graphic designer
2. Journalist
3. Web designer.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1. Penang
2. Singapore
3. Taiwan

THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE
1. Lyle
2. Candice
3. Alexander/ Alexandra

THREE THINGS YOU WANNA DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Be loved
2. Make sure my parents know I'm a dutiful daughter
3. Kiss him ... or anyone else

THREE THINGS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL
1. Weak
2. Mood swings
3. Likes to ask a lot

INITIALS OF THREE CRUSHES (current or previous)
1. JC
2. PK
3. HM

hehe, my top threes!!! haha.. anyways .. i gtg now .. wanna shower ..before that go play with Dog the cat first ..

"And who am i to tell you, that i will never let you down ..that no one else can love you, half as much as i do now .. " - Will Young

ciao

Jaz

Labels: daily rant, tag

;7:05 PM

i been away from the blogging world too long. a week!


whew. lotsa things been happening lately.


first of all, my comp Colby got really sick. he keeps hiccuping these irratating error window.

some generic host process win32 services has encountered an error.. bla bla bla ..

see, i see it so many time i pratically remembered it !

so in the end, he went to the Hospital for Sick Comps and got himself reformatted.


which means i have a new pc .. sorta..


then i hated him.. it's like he's so foreign to me .. so empty, so contentless....


so there's such thing as human-computer connection..


but i decided to try to love him again.. after all, he's my comp .. and i decided to make it look more homey .. more me .. so we could connect again..

** My Winamp is striking pink! My ym sanely blue. My MSN lightly pink**

dang, couldn't make my ym pink..

Behind all the clutter of stuff ...

** My wallpaper .. of lyrics for Jie Kou , one of Jay's great songs**

wallpaper credit to a member of jcnet

yeah, Colby can read chinese de =D

and secondly been trying to rush assignment..



*plucking a few mins to blog here*



heavy heavy assignment.. and the best part of all?



i decided to be worked up at the moment.. even though i'm stumbling.. no one knows this cept for my parents.

going home helps, ya know..

i know i'm too old to run and hide behind my parents but they're a few of the individuals i trust with my life. hey, after all, they gave it to me..

looking at dad and talking to him about my depression and weaknesses and misery, i had to gulp couple of times to keep my tear dam from bursting. gulp so many times my throat ache.


yesh, i might be down laying in the dumps now but believe me , i will kick up again..



[ why you so sure you can kick up again? ]



because i have faith in myself. because i know this situation is temporarily. because i know i have all the support i need, mentally and spiritually.


i just have to push myself a little better. work on my self esteem. work on being tougher and not being a pushover.



so it is said.



anyways, emo things aside.



lemme just insert one thing before i go back to hell hole with assignment.


** Jay look emo**

his music lift me up.. even if it's just a while, even if it's a little bit but every bit helps .. =)

jia you jie lun.

ciao.

oh, happy bday to my sis .. turning 12 last 12 April

Ying, here's a big 12 for ya!

*poke at Ah B & Titi * XD

p/s: check out this site . it has great cartoon.. keep me entertained for hours!

Labels: bday wish, emotion, family, jay chou

;12:15 PM

lately, i think i been acting kinda bitchy, cranky and bratty. i'm sorry for those i offended.

firstly to my Media Production team, i have been a bit quiet and not my usual self during the past week when we were putting up the props together.

then to my homie, Steph for tolerating our dirty house =( due to production mess

sorry to my parents cause i couldn't make it home last weekend. miss you guys lotz.

sorry to those i snapped at.. or those i am close to but suddenly grew quiet with ..

sorry to Joanne for being impatient lately.

sorry to WM for being bratty, emo and not so stable last week.

i think i'm sick of myself too. lol..

i would also like say sorry to those who felt like i made them pissed or anything.

so sorry, it's this PMS thingy.. i get really bad mood swing when it's the time of the month. and no, i find it hard to control.. serious..

i dunno how many ladies out there experience this .. but when the mood comes, it's like i wanna cry all the time, i get depressed. i should be left alone to cope with my emotions but i don't be left alone. little things annoyed the hell out of me. people who i constantly tolerate became something that i wanna kill!!! .. i cannot stand it .... that's how bad my pms can be ..

so if you think i'm annoying at that time.. plz stay away .. i dun reason with you then ..

i haven't been doing my prayers for the past two weeks.. so i guess that's why i'm devillish and my life is not stable.. i blow *paboom* so easily nowadays ..

=(

on a happier note .. yesterday i was registering for something online ..

-requires password-

*types in regular password*

-access denied-

*hmm.. another password*

-access denied too/two-

*tries another password*

-access denied third time-

*close to quitting* =(

then..

*enters his name as password*

-access allowed-

wth ..lol... wow.. coincidence much?

lol.. i need to go clean up some stuff .. see ya later

ciao

;)

Labels: emotion

;8:19 PM

today i shall just assume i got tagged by Abby and Vvens..



and spill the content of my bag .. =D

** My purse and my phone .. **

** Jie Chun and Daphne, my plug-ins **

** Butterfly clip from Sinma, four pink long clips, hair spray in mini bottle and a mini comb**

** A Leo mirror, lip balm keep my lips moisture and lip gloss for glossy lips **

** My J necklace , pretty Leo key chain from Shin and Rong for bday 2006 and my Leo necklace**

** Jay pictures =P , my keys attached to my doggie and mints.. **

whew.. that's it in my small bag..

=D

i think that's it for today la .. gtg lunch soon!

ciao

p/s: i woke up super late today .. whew =D

Labels: pix, tag

;2:22 PM

;10:31 PM

4 housemates.
neighbour.
friend of 8 years.
2 group members.
singaporean friend.
mummy.
auntie.

one secret.

mine.

shhhh...

Labels: emotion

;1:48 AM