i have no mood to blog but i feel like i ought to say something here .

lemme recap one day ago

i arrived at Stadium Negara ( National Stadium ) around 4 pm- ish

Between 4 pm till 8 pm something , we had our dinner, took photos and changed into our uniforms.

We even managed to rehearse our counting twice, while sitting in our seats ..

Then it was show time.

I'm not lying when I say i'm nervous, i was very confident but still nervous

My nervousness strikes and i feel light headed, seriously i feel like passing out any minute.

And right before our performance starts, i feel like going to the toilet .. AGAIN!

shit, but i managed to push aside very damn thing and did my performance, my part the best that i could.

all the while, mumbling my counting and still feeling like half conscious.

actually all the while on the platform itself, my heart was thumping and i felt an out of body experience.

like i had no control over my body. but in the end, we succeed and Soka Gakkai Malaysia once again created history.

i'm very proud of us =]

i received smses from members congratulating us and koko even sms me and said it was GREAT .. that moment, i almost felt like crying.

for someone who is watching at home, for someone who is not there to watch and said it was great.. then it really meant something.

we celebrated a little , lots of group photos were taken and for the first time since practice, i wished we could stay there a little longer. it is after all my last practice, our final performance and i get to meet this bunch of great people here.

we are excited that we were successful.

but as they said, all good things must come to an end.

we took the bus home and it was a strange sense of disturbance + calmness .. this is the final time i'm doing this .. taking this bus home ..

when we arrived at our pick up point, there were people there cheering us and congraluting us , saying thank you for a wonderful performance but deep inside, i feel like we should thank them instead.

i come home and i feel a little empty.

question linger in my mind

when will i see E3 members again?

however on 31th August 2007, we had once again created history! =D

p/s : there will be two more posts on this ... and there will be photos up, i promise

Labels: emotion, memories, Project 50 : E3

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