i been away from the blogging world too long. a week!


whew. lotsa things been happening lately.


first of all, my comp Colby got really sick. he keeps hiccuping these irratating error window.

some generic host process win32 services has encountered an error.. bla bla bla ..

see, i see it so many time i pratically remembered it !

so in the end, he went to the Hospital for Sick Comps and got himself reformatted.


which means i have a new pc .. sorta..


then i hated him.. it's like he's so foreign to me .. so empty, so contentless....


so there's such thing as human-computer connection..


but i decided to try to love him again.. after all, he's my comp .. and i decided to make it look more homey .. more me .. so we could connect again..

** My Winamp is striking pink! My ym sanely blue. My MSN lightly pink**

dang, couldn't make my ym pink..

Behind all the clutter of stuff ...

** My wallpaper .. of lyrics for Jie Kou , one of Jay's great songs**

wallpaper credit to a member of jcnet

yeah, Colby can read chinese de =D

and secondly been trying to rush assignment..



*plucking a few mins to blog here*



heavy heavy assignment.. and the best part of all?



i decided to be worked up at the moment.. even though i'm stumbling.. no one knows this cept for my parents.

going home helps, ya know..

i know i'm too old to run and hide behind my parents but they're a few of the individuals i trust with my life. hey, after all, they gave it to me..

looking at dad and talking to him about my depression and weaknesses and misery, i had to gulp couple of times to keep my tear dam from bursting. gulp so many times my throat ache.


yesh, i might be down laying in the dumps now but believe me , i will kick up again..



[ why you so sure you can kick up again? ]



because i have faith in myself. because i know this situation is temporarily. because i know i have all the support i need, mentally and spiritually.


i just have to push myself a little better. work on my self esteem. work on being tougher and not being a pushover.



so it is said.



anyways, emo things aside.



lemme just insert one thing before i go back to hell hole with assignment.


** Jay look emo**

his music lift me up.. even if it's just a while, even if it's a little bit but every bit helps .. =)

jia you jie lun.

ciao.

oh, happy bday to my sis .. turning 12 last 12 April

Ying, here's a big 12 for ya!

*poke at Ah B & Titi * XD

p/s: check out this site . it has great cartoon.. keep me entertained for hours!

Labels: bday wish, emotion, family, jay chou

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